Hurt

My head hurts.

I've got one hell of a headache since this morning. I want to sleep, but sleep is running away from me. Futhermore, I must study the stupid philosophy of Marx. You know, the guy who's behind the theory of communist? He probably never though it would be use the way it has been use. Same for Einstsein and the atomic bomb. He died knowing his theory had killed millions of people; he never go to know it has also brought some good in this world (not the bomb though... I'm talking about nuclear medecine....)

My sister is out on trip to the Big Apple. Yep, you named it : New York.

So, I got the room ro myself forthe whole week. It's lonely. It's easier to pretend that everything's alrigth when there's someone around. Alone, I find myself mopping around...

Oh well...

I've check how many years it would take me if I wanted to be a neurologist. 15. I already give up. I'll find something else. Maybe I'll just do what I wanrted to do first. Complete my Bac and then go to japan for a year. From there, I'll just move on.

I need a change. A big change. I feel like I'm suffocating or something. I can't take the weight of my life anymore. It was easier before, when all of my friends were around. Now that we're all slowly drifting apart, I don't know what I should hold onto...

Quote:

"A single trembling light, disappearing before it can ease the pain...

A single falling tears, disappearing before the feelings in it are known...

Only sadness…

Even if a faint light is born, the grief returns over and over...

This is the truth that disappears like a lie...

Even if I spread my last wings, I can’t change my fate;

As the lily blossom is short-lived, the pain never fades

I could only love in my dreams..."

-Arashi, Truth-

Pic: Zwei