Another day

I had japanese lesson today. It was okay.
I think it's one of the only thing that keeps me sane. The only thing I do because I want to, not because I have to.
I'll definitly hate this summer. Work's not so bad, but between all I have to do, there is what I would like to do, what I don't want to do and what will never be.
I feel like Sisyphus right now. Hell, I can't wait to reach the summit, so I can finaly breath, even just a minute. Then, I will be happy.
I also feel lost. And it makes me angry. I keep snaping at people without really wanting to and then they get angry, and THAT makes me even more angry. It's just...they don't understand what's going on! They don't even try to. They expect way too much and it makes me sick.

I've been think about getting a tattoo. A kanji that is. Maybe "courage" or "strenght". Because I lack both.

Quote:
"My dear, how are you?
It's the first time I'm writing a letter.
I'm more or less okay.
I've gotten use to beimg alone.
In the parc on my way home tonight, the sakura were in full bloom
And it makes me think of you.
The petals floating in the dark sky seems exhausted
The world in fever appears distorted.
If this is the work of love, we will surely be out of breath too.
In this last moment, flowers will bloom"
-Plastic Tree, Harusaki Sentimental-