BSL

Been so long since I even HAD the will to write anything here.
Life's more or less okay. I'm nether too depress or too happy.
To sum it up, it's plain boring and pretty much the same everyday.
It's now friday...12:30. I'm currently waiting for my next class wich is at 1:05. Just the though of going to work tomorrow makes me want to throw up. I'd take school 7days/week if it meant not going to work *take the bus all the way home and go hide underher bed*.

A lot of stuff has happen since the last time I wrote someting. Well...really just two thing XD My birthday and Christmas. I'm now 19 and have been so for some months now. Just can't accept the fact that I'm actually growing older. It's a disaster.

Apart from that, I'm thinking about going away. I'd love to spend the summer somewhere else. The requirement are easily met for the place.
-The people there mustn't speak french.
-It has to be very very far away from where I live.

I'm starting to hate this place. The street, the people...everything. It's slowly eating me up inside. I really need to get away. Even if it's just for a couple of weeks.

I'm officialy ditching my field of study. Not that I don't like history anymore. I'll just never like it enough to do that my whole life. I'm going to try a DEC in animals healt and if I like it, I'll go for the animals medical school and be a veterinarian. The time comes when you have to draw a line between what you can do, what you'd like to do, and what you're gonna do. What I'd really like to do, like my biggest dream, would be to study in the neuroscience field. In order to get there, I'd have to go through the damn Natural sciences... and there's no way I'm going to do that. There's too much competition and bullshit going on there. So, I'm leaving this dream behide and going for the what I can do, even if it's not really what I like or want.

Anyway, I have to go now.
See ya.

"In the middle of the changing season,
I can suddenly feel the lenght of the days
And in those days were it's just too busy,
You and I are panting our dreams."
-9 March-

"Powdered swow, until you dye our heart white, can we share both of our loneliness"
-Konayuki-

"Once you take a step foward, there will be a road.
There's no way if you don't-
And even if there was a way from the beginning,
You're meant to walk that road."
-Miyavi sama, 12-31-09 -